Oh the daily woes of this young lass who watches anime and dare i says it plays wow!
Its been ages since I wrote a journal/and or put up anything worth putting up (oh wait,Ive never done that...) but on Wednesday this week I head back to that big building and back to classes.
BUT alas folks! This year be different for our anime-loving heroine, she has the evil foe of..Junior Cert Examinations to best her attempts at a clear mind and clear soul!
Yes i shouldnt be freaking as its not the biggest exam in my life but hey, its the first major ive come across and ofc im worried. (Studies show I do this action alot) >.>
"WTF I HAVENT MY WRITTEN PROJECT IN HOME EC EVEN 1/4 OF THE WAY THERE" and "HOLY SHIT I FAIL AT MATHS BIG TIME" are just some of the phrases being shot out of machine guns at me at everyside in my head right now.
Whats kind of worrying me aswell is the fact that most careers i was looking at (yes im looking,wtf is wrong with me amirite?) require a good honors maths, which i dont think i can do. even though thats Leaving cert in 3 years...STILL MATE STILL! :iminyourpostshakingmafish!:
Im a quiet,shy person who isnt the thinnest chicken to walk this earth. plus im tall.
I just dont feel in tune with alot of my classmates (I cant say i like any one of them too much) but hey you dont need to be buddy-buddy with someone in your classes to get by them right? I think ive come to a general understanding of my actions and is that a sign of some sort of maturing as a person? God knows. I Think im getting to the stage where not being seen with a quote "friend" in every class situation doesnt bother me as much as it used to. If ive to be a loner, sure i wont talk, Ill think, if i look like a loner, hopefully that wont send me into a fit of \"OMGILOOKSOSADBYSELFIBETTERTALKTOSOMEONE\". My past self even last year thought everyone was judging her, especially if she was by herself. Im trying to get into the habit of saying, god they dont give a shit, and if they do, wow good for them.
WOWZOR FOLKS thats a WALL OF TEXT ATTACK. but im sorry, i just needed to vent my thoughts and feelings on something to have a clear mind for back to school. over self-awareness shoo!
Terrah folks hopefully ill return again with a better,hopeful outlook, as everyone had to do this. and im not the only one who had to go through this